Run down

My main PC kinda died on Monday so I felt less inclined to play much online on one of the slower ones at home while I waited for the new one to arrive.

Hence, I spent more time reflecting in the "Where to from here" mode. Still made no firm decison on what my main online game should be. Till now I've been the ultimate dabbler, doing a bit of everything without really concentrating or specialising. That said, about 90% of my profits online have come from cash as opposed to tournaments. Problem is I don't seem to enjoy cash, but don't seem to be able to sustain the same hourly rate playing SNGs or MTTs. Or maybe I haven't done enough tournaments to be able to say.

Running hasn't been going well either. A speed session at the track on Monday was an utter fiasco: my heart didn't seem to be in it. Not for the first time this year I found myself wondering if my days as a runner are drawing to a close. I can't imagine every going back to being a couch potato, but I could myself returning to being the recreational runner I started out to be before my characteristic insanely competitive nature took over. On the other hand, I don't want to look back in 10 or 20 years when I'm too old to be competitive internationally and think I wasted my opportunities.

I need to get my enthusiasm and attitude back. I've just been confirmed as an automatic selection for this year's World 24 Hour Championships in Seoul in October. I have a feeling that race will tell me what kind of future I have left in ultra running, and I want to give it my best shot at least. If you can't get excited about representing your country at the world championships of your sport, you're probably done.

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